It's been a while but I'm still not fine Tryna find a place you haven't been in my mind And everyone says healing takes time But I think that depends on how the stitches are tied If I'm honest the issue is not if I miss you But if I'll ever trust you again Who knew forgiveness Could be such a hard bitch? I never thought forgiveness Would lead back to the darkness But I'm reliving every thing you did Every word you said Tryna fill the craters you left in My head and my chest cause Forgiveness just makes me feel heartless Tryna find my way back to the brightness Kill you with kindness It's not just that you messed me up I kinda think it's sick the way you kept having fun I wonder if you know how to love Or do you only feel it when you drink yourself numb? I promise I'm tryin' But the deeper I'm divin' The less I wanna make it back up Who knew forgiveness Could be such a hard bitch? I never thought forgiveness Would lead back to the darkness But I'm reliving every thing you did Every word you said Tryna fill the craters you left in My head and my chest cause Forgiveness just makes me feel heartless Tryna find my way back to the brightness Kill you with kindness Kill you with kindness I guess I kinda hoped it would be easier than this But I still can't forget And I don't wanna relive it Who knew forgiveness Could make you feel hopeless I never thought forgiveness Would lead back to the darkness But I'm reliving every thing you did Every word you said Tryna fill the craters you left in My head and my chest cause Forgiveness just makes me feel heartless Tryna find my way back to the brightness Kill you with kindness Kill you with kindness