In spite of what they say, I'm still not right Out of body out of mind and out of everyone's sight But even through the struggle I still hold tight Leaving the pieces behind makes it easier to feel alive I need to live, I need to love, not just survive Force myself, not finished yet, facing fears I thought I'd dreamt Life don't wait for payment sent And what I've earned hasn't made a dent This isn't me, this isn't who I was supposed to be A dead weight hanging on your words The cast of my mold is cracked and for once in my life it feels Good to accept that second place is a finish that we get The weight of it all is crushing me I'm trying to reach this level of peace Where I feel nothing for anyone or anything Maybe then I can finally sleep Fighting for survival and trying to kill the pain Searching for the sun in a world that always rains Fighting for survival and trying to kill the pain If it's peace I need so be it but I'll always curse your name