Rather free my soul Rather be alone Rather be a daydreamer Rather be a real one In the backseat Maybach with the driver Moving like a trap nigga Gotta stay low low I'd rather live lawless with a lil bitch that I buy all of the shit Even though it's on discount Rather be a poor man with a lil affection Everybody wanna feel special I rather be broke as hell than rich and sitting all alone I'd rather be hand in hand, I just can't do it on my own I'd rather be good inside than living happy on the outside I rather be broke as hell than rich and sitting all alone 'Cause how I'm gonna pay my bail if no one's picking up the phone? I'd rather be good inside than living happy on the outside I could be difficult sometimes But that come from the ego in this mind of mine My self esteem can make a nigga emo The hate could come from love and baby we know I'm my only lover I'm my only friend Working on my flaws I think I'm clocking in I'm my only weakness I hope I'm off on the weekends I rather be broke as hell than rich and sitting all alone I'd rather be hand in hand, I just can't do it on my own I'd rather be good inside than living happy on the outside I rather be broke as hell than rich and sitting all alone 'Cause how I'm gonna pay my bail if no one's picking up the phone? I'd rather be good inside than living happy on the outside Sometimes This ego in this mind of mine Ego We know Don't ask if I need a tissue I don't need no fuckin tissue These ain't tears, it's just something in my eye So please don't press the issue Please don't press no buttons One of these things for self destruction Forgot which one, I ain't read the instructions That right there is the key to my suffering Mama ain't home, five years old Blue Clues raised me, Cheerios saved me Porno, step father here is what changed me He ain't do a good job, he was too lazy While y'all was in daycare I was in Jay care No lace front, this truth, no fake hair I wish you ain't have me at nineteen, I'd prolly grow up better I wish you would talk to me nicely, I prolly would love better I wish you would read to me every night, I prolly would read more Man all of this pain on my back gon' be having me looking like Igor I put all the hurt in this art of mine Yeah it's one more thing on my mind Just maybe a couple of lullabies Was all that I needed to fight all the demons My spirit is bleeding, let's pray Father God I am just learning how to pray, so bear with me First I thank you for the life of everyone that's here with me Then I thank you for the love you give me, why? I don't know, I don't deserve it, and it hurts inside Many a nights I cried, and called your name out loud But didn't call you when I was doin' good, I was too proud And still you gave me love, I wasn't used to that Most of the people that gave me love, they ended up takin' it back That's somethin' new to me, so I'm askin' you for time to adjust Let me make it there, I will be one you can trust What I stand for, I put my life on, I do I guess what I'm askin' is, show me how to stand for you Hush little baby don't you cry Mama's gonna sing you a lullaby And if that lullaby don't work Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird