I saw the face of God A mouth and a pool of blood At 9 in the morning After sleep In a bathtub A body can make you think That colors obtain in things Like Maggie Nelson said: "The color inside of you." Can I feel nostalgia for A death I will never know? The silence of silence This is all that I've ever wanted When I woke up in the tub Invisible wrecked ships Circled around my head A voice screamed: "You wouldn't want it If you see the pain in the anteroom You wouldn't applaud it Nothing on this side was built for you." And now you're laughing Would you laugh when they play it all back And in the movie of your life You only speak in one scene And when the doors opens you say: "I've been thinking about it my life long" And when they ask what you mean Your lips are moving But the mic's not on Thought it was a pool of blood But then when the cameras stopped The hole thing evaporates A voice with no body shouts: "The money has all run out What we used to call a job Is now handled by machines You can die in peace!" But you wouldn't want it If you see the pain in the anteroom You wouldn't applaud it Nothing on this side was built for you And now you're laughing Would you laugh when they play it all back And in the movie of your life You only speak in one scene? And when the doors opens you say: "I've been thinking about it my life long" And when they ask you what you mean Your lips are moving But the mic's not on What have you been trying to day? Is this a joke or some kind of mistake? No one's counting the days Until your whole little body becomes Even less that decay