I was awoken 'Cause we haven't spoken And, maybe, it's long overdue Mourning the morning You called without warning Left a message. Said it was you I never dialed 'Cause I was a child But what if I picked up the phone? Then would affection Not trigger protection And would I not feel so alone? All on my own We all make mistakes I'm not above them But I see my kids How much I love them If I had to leave Until the last breath that I breathe I see my son How much he needs his mama If she were to leave In his life, that's some trauma And that is the reason why I have this armor Why me being open is really much harder And that bears the question "Did you keep it moving?" The life that you gave me You care about losing? I'm trapped in a place between "lost" and "confusion" But promise that I'm 'a keep doing Better than you That's all I can do I'm your mistake Good, bad and ugly Sometimes, I do wonder: did you even love me? Why wouldn't you fight back, when I had to leave Until the last breath that you breathe?