We both went to the 12 Rods show, And pretended not to see each other, The only thing we swore would never happen, No matter what else did, And I don't really blame you, I suppose, Lord knows it was a perfect let down, But I remember feeling like, The only people in any crowded room. I'm still trying to convince myself, I don't care if you think I'm an asshole, I'm still trying to convince myself, I hope you're happy now. Now you're making jokes at my expense, Whatever makes you smile, And holding hands with a formerly mutual friend, Whatever makes you feel strong. I'm still trying to convince myself, I don't care if you think I'm an asshole, I'm still trying to convince myself, I hope you're happy now. When you base your whole identity, On reaction against somebody, It's the same as being in love. You look so happy, I hope it's not a performance for my sake. I'm still trying to convince myself, I don't care if you think I'm an asshole, I'm still trying to convince myself, I hope you're happy now. I'm still trying to convince myself, I deserve a silent treatment, I'm still trying to convince myself That I never knew you, I never knew you, oh. When you base your whole identity, But I'm asking for your forgiveness, 'Cause you know I meant no harm, And I'm kind of ashamed, I can't say I behaved well, But I'm asking for your forgiveness, 'Cause you know I meant no harm, And I'm kind of ashamed.