Born in the later September heat The years started catching up to me You never thought I'd make it through 2016 Sleepless nights and endless days Placing in my own death race You know I'm craving failure I'm craving failure's taste I drove past my old high school tonight And thought about all the times that we would risk our lives Didn't care if we survived Now the changing seasons pass me by I can feel the bags under my eyes But they won't drag me down Unless I'm six feet underground I'm not, I'm not afraid anymore of the demons lingering inside my closet door Out of all that I've done, and all that I've seen I finally know what's important to me So if I die tonight, bury me at sea Engulf me in flames, let me burn eternally Wearing my mistakes embedded on my sleeves You're gonna have to f*cking behead me to f*cking make me leave I won't give up easily Douse my house in kerosene Reaper take my hand and lead me to your guillotine As the, as the mob cheers and screams, don't cry and don't f*cking pray for me Out of all that I've done, and all that I've seen I finally know what's important to me So if I die tonight, bury me at sea Engulf me in flames, let me burn eternally When the light burns out that led me home I'll still have somewhere left to go When the weight of the world's too much to hold I'll grab the reaper by the throat And make sure that son of a bitch will choke If it wasn't for you, I'd be asleep by now If it wasn't for you, I'd throw in the towel I won't kick the chair and hang right from my throat Without a call for help or a suicide note Coroner's report would read “Death Unknown” You'll find an empty house cause nobody is home Out of all that I've done, and all that I've seen I finally know what's important to me So if I die tonight, bury me at sea Engulf me in flames, let me burn eternally