How long will I go on turning my back and closing my eyes wishing you were here but pretening you're dead it's not so bad here in mediocraty no one expects much of me but I think of you and your thoughts of me I hurt so badly but I can't leave You kiss me when I'm sleeping when I have no will to wake it's will that keeps me from you it's a change I'll have to make Will I ever be able to do the things my heart feels for you? am I able to stop the things I do not want to do? I want to hold the hand that guides me and loves me but this stubborn will has its hold on me misery is my cradle, i'm dying in my needs will providence shine his face on me? Pick me up off this floor out of this mess I've made for myself my flesh is weak but my spirit is willing river's bridge of stones I'll fall water deep your whirlpool love will hold me still I'm safe in the cradle when I'm in your light spirit come and make everything alright