I lived for your permission I shifted my opinions If you asked then I commissioned Anything you'd ever need Made it a priority You trade me like an option To buy or sell at auction This love is laced with caution Tape around my mouth again Incase I try to turn you in No ones more convoluted No ones more inconclusive Drunk on your own delusions You're an optical illusion Don't make me disappear again, is that what you wanted? Put on a show for all your friends, does it make you feel honest? Cause I ran and went off to college and you stayed in hometown hospice So don't make me disappear again cause this time I'll be the one to end End it all I won't come home for Christmas So please take me off your wishlist You saw my mom at Mrs Aaron's, my old neighbors house, and couldn't help but ask about If I was doing well, if I'd be back in town If I was seeing anybody or anything else She said I moved away, and that I loved LA I lost a bunch of weight the second I threw you away No ones more convoluted No ones more inconclusive Drunk on your own delusions You're an optical illusion Don't make me disappear again, is that what you wanted? Put on a show for all your friends, does it make you feel honest? Cause I ran and went off to college and you stayed in hometown hospice So don't make me disappear again cause this time I'll be the one to end End it all And make you fall back in love Just to lose it all And make you watch as I go Don't make me disappear again, is that what you wanted? Put on a show for all your friends, does it make you feel honest? Cause I ran and went off to college and you stayed in hometown hospice So don't make me disappear again cause this time I'll be the one to end