Cut my throat
While I'm drowning in my sleep
I'm wide awake
I smile red as you're watching me
Let me gargle
Choke on my own blood
Forever gone
Eyes glazed as my lungs flood
Joyful laughter
For my final breaths
I was too cowardly
To take that final step
To tear myself apart
In any way but slowly
To drink, and fuck, and cry
And still feel lonely
Cut my throat
I'm wide awake
A bat set loose in the night
Spilling neck, convulsing chest
Tears of joy wet my cheeks
You saved me
Cut my throat
While I'm drowning in my sleep
I'm wide awake
I smile red as you're watching me
Let me gargle
Choke on my own blood
Forever gone
Eyes glazed as my lungs flood
Joyful laughter
For my final breaths
I was too cowardly
To take that final step
To tear myself apart
In any way but slowly
To drink, and fuck, and cry
And still feel lonely
