My finger on a
I was hoping that, that you go
Baby, baby, something I don't feel the same as I do
Staying up all night, wonder about you
To the women that I've loved and lost
I be battle thaughts
Put a stake to my wrists to hang me up on a cross
Crucify me for usually lying with other broads
Lying to you but so truth with who I'm not involved
I know I cut you off, sometimes I wanna call
But that'll make it worse, I know you better off
If we never met, you wouldn't have these scars
I know this sounds crazy, but I loved you all
You got a couple kids, you wish I was the dad
And you live with your mom, things is going bad
You live in LA, so you got different probs
Wanted to stay at home with kids, but now you're switching jobs
I agree from time to time to check up on your family
Cause I see that fake smile and the picture after you're texting me
These hoes attached and told me that the second that you slept with me
So when I broke I know you took the pieces that was left in me and
It's not fair, I'm not there
I moved on, I got scared
I settled down, we sizzled out
I hope you well, but it's different now
Baby, baby, something I don't feel the same as I do
Staying up all night, wonder about you
I been up late night, I wrote this letter for you
Even though I been away look I still adore you
I was trying to show you the angel that you are
It was just too many demons that I couldn't show you, uh
And I been following my dreams
Lately shit this life ain't what it seems
Sometimes I wanna take this gun and put my brains up on my jeans
And my Mom called and asked if I was clean, damn
I closed my eyes and I thought about you
How people used to hate the fact I was around you
And everything we been through
All the times they doubted us
Despite the devils in my life I'm glad I found you
Baby, baby, something I don't feel the same as I do
Staying up all night, wonder about you
Y'all propably wonder who I'm talking 'bout
I had too many to count
I always thought that was the wave, I took the artist route
Dipping in and out of town but when I left I brought 'em out
Life was simple, time was extramental so I calfed it out
We met at different times along the journey
Grew up in different homes, I never thought that I was worthy
I thought I get you pregnant and accept it, that be it
[?] just like I learn and then go through the steps again
I met one girl in third grade, kept in touch and fell in love
One girl in middle school, she cheated thought she was the one
One girl at graduation, changed me when I was a [?]
One girl out in LA, I guess she used me as a plug
I reconnected with someone I had a crush on
Growing older so we put a rush on
One on social media who wouldn't leaving till she put a blush on
Sorry to the women that I've done wrong
And to the one I'm with, with my soul is lit, you stay the perfect fit
If the shoe is on the other foot, I know I woulda dipped, it's a trip
I finally learned how to just commit
That forever love a choice, you made a man out of a kid
That's real
