I'm losing days so fast I shake my head 'til it explodes It's strange to know that Only a few weeks ago I was looking through chair legs A kid at an adults party We smiled at each other Across an invisible boundary I find love in The decisions I dip into my stomach Like I'm at a bat mitzvah making a wax hand The walls between The worlds grew thin And I felt Everything I'm not mother earth, I Require blue light, I Strew garbage, I write Grocery lists, make appointments I'm stunted in my growth I hate to hear the truth My skin is filled with dust I smear creams on my fine lines I swear it's not my time Adam and Eve Are trying weed In quarantine With fancy cheese It's not like I'm giving up just That I never tried to begin with