Lately I've been paranoid I walk around with a blade Thinking 'bout buying a stick Hope I don't blow out my brains I didn't grow up with shit Used to sell drugs, hide the bag Out of my moms apartment Yeah, I regret it, the shame Leave the racks on the curb That was for a double P That night I almost got shot In my house for sellin' weed Flying through trees like a bird Addicted to numbing the pain Maybe I've been too reserved I've been too humble and tame I gotta puff out my chest I've been in this for a grip Lately I hop out of bed And I'm trippin' in a cold sweat Lately I've been paranoid I walk around with a blade Thinking 'bout buying a stick Hope I don't blow out my brains I didn't grow up with shit Used to sell drugs, hide the bag Out of my moms apartment Yeah, I regret it, the shame