Why can't they See the dark Inside of me Deep within me... They expect me To put on a smiling face They want me happy But I can't lie As I wipe away the tears That stream down my face The beauty they see In this atrocious world Has forgotten me in this life I enjoy the misery That breeds inside me Please tell me why... Happiness is a cruel myth It eludes me every time Creating a void in my life Even just the thought of love Is fantasy in this day and age Nowhere left for me to hide From this self-inflicted rage Sleep, my only escape From this pain As I live inside a dream Or so it seems A perfect world That never will exist again This torment deep inside Won't end My life in ruins, I can't pretend Darkness shrouds my every move My mind is all that's left to lose Sinking further every day How could I live this way? Defeated in this futile war I cannot take this anymore The light of the world Grows dim in my eyes As they bleed Promises of a good life Turn to lies before me Save me from myself This just isn't right The want, the fear, the pain... I cry myself to sleep every night I feel I've lost the fight The hurt never leaves From my life I slowly die inside Is there a cure for this disease? Or will I die in misery? The pleasure in my life is gone How did I last this long? There was a time I had seen The beauty of mankind And unbridled love Now I feel the anguish Trapped within my soul As I give in The end is here for me In this lifetime Welcoming my demise