I sit in my room To contemplate All the reasons why Why am I here, why must I live Through these grieving times Overwhelmed by hurt Deep inside my soul A quick ending to this all I lose my self-control With the noose clutched in my hands You can't understand This blatant travesty Has become part of me Drifting through the seas of sorrow Condemned to Fade away from my life, From the lies I place the rope around my throat And close my eyes Falling down towards the ground The choking sounds Finally I will see the way Though something went wrong I am still alive Trapped in misery Forever, in agony They find me hanging From a tree Bleeding, pleading Please don't set me free Releasing the rope From around my swollen neck They bring me down Refusing to let me rest Why didn't they leave Me in my misery For all the world to see They must hate me They place me in a room No windows I could see They think insanity Is what ails me They test me everyday But can't see the way Into my barren mind To see what they could find I fall into a state They call it catatonia So helpless, They have left me there Never to awake But they have made A great mistake Drifting through an endless sea Condemned to Fade away from my life, From the lies A dormant sleep that won't last, To their surprise I will awake from this state, From this pain Finally, they will see the way