You know I want to be the way you want me to Big hearted and tall enough to cover you I would break in half if you said it loud Splinter out of myself just like mercury I think it's better now than how it used to be You were lying in bed and I would levitate I think it's better here than where we used to be I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun: to be alive in the day I'd smile at everyone I remember you back in '83 You were dressing insane, you were my everything You were so different from all those other girls A blind Electra in drag, so cool and casually lame I think I'm better now than how I used to be Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time I think it's better now than how it used to be Always up in the night, afraid to live in the day Afraid of being afraid Now I sit alone when you're not around I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice I see you scary dolls, they all look at me From the corner of my eye I see them shake their heads You know I want to be the way you me to Big hearted and tall enough to cover you I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day