Smokin' all this gas, poppin' all these prescriptions
Thinkin' 'bout my past, swear, I try to forget it (Wavy Pluto, you dig?)
But whenever it gets bad, I just swallow the liquor
Tryna figure where it went wrong at, but I cannot remember
But I remember what you told me
You would never leave me, that's what you told me
Whenever I need you, you gon' be there, that's what you told me
But you not here now
Yeah, starin' at this cocaine mountain, no lie
I'm scared that it's no way out, so high
I'm scared that I won't come down, come down
Why everybody tellin' me to calm down?
How I'm 'posed to chill when I got loved ones in the ground?
How I'm 'posed to chill when none of my day ones around me?
How I'm 'posed to chill when this pain, I feel real
But I can't do nothin' about it?
Tired of walkin' 'round feelin' ugly and poutin'
Tired of walkin' 'round feelin' like love ain't 'round me
All these dark clouds and puddles 'round me, yeah
Tired of walkin' 'round feelin' like I'm drowning
I remember layin' on that ground bleedin'
Thinkin' they got the best of me
Couple screws, couple pins only thing I got left from it
Derez De'Shon
Smokin' all this gas, poppin' all these prescriptions
Thinkin' 'bout my past, swear, I try to forget it
But whenever it gets bad, I just swallow the liquor
Tryna figure where it went wrong at, but I cannot remember
But I remember what you told me
You would never leave me, that's what you told me
Whenever I need you, you gon' be there, that's what you told me
But you not here now
Lookin' for you, but can't find you when I need you
Can't question God, 'cause I know God got his reasons
But it's been hard and I've been bothered by these demons
That pain pierced my heart and left me scarred and I need you
Lookin' at these diamond chains
Lookin' at this watch and rings, thinkin' 'bout how far I came, yeah
I've been through a lot of pain
Without you it's just not the same, without you I've been going crazy
Tryna find my way back home, and I'm lost
Tryna cut my brain back on, but I'm off
It's like I'm rappin' a whole pain song, but I'm talkin'
Derez De'Shon
Smokin' all this gas, poppin' all these prescriptions
Thinkin' 'bout my past, swear, I try to forget it
But whenever it gets bad, I just swallow the liquor
Tryna figure where it went wrong at, but I cannot remember
But I remember what you told me
You would never leave me, that's what you told me
Whenever I need you, you gon' be there, that's what you told me
But you not here now
