So this is the world That I blocked out for so long Sorting through memories Most of them long gone Ten years in this whirlwind Has rendered me Less of a person and more of a cage I'm not really sure who I am anymore Just a barrel of liquor with thoughts I abhor This life raft is sinking so far from the shore And it's pulling us back out to sea So let's see how much more we can take Before all this creates Some deep mental break and we lose it We'll snap Throw our hands up in laughter 'Cause after all what does it matter What we choose to do while we're here Once we're dead Most mornings I can barely Scrape my body off the mattress No recollection of the night before My brain is pickin' fights before I've even had a chance to find my flask My fuckin' soul is sore I'm contemplating prices of a casket Killed the bottle still drenched and trembling I may have dug myself too deep Not sure if my mind's mine to keep But help's expensive, booze is cheap So let's see how much more we can take Before all this creates Some deep mental break and we lose it We'll snap Throw our hands up in laughter 'Cause after all what does it matter What we choose to do while we're here Once we're dead I'm an earthquake Disguised as human flesh A fault line formed to separate my head and chest My sanity's been compromised Heart has ossified There's no turning back So I'll stay the course And someday break the little I've got left