Had To Have Him

Damhnait Doyle

I'm the cause of your hurting
I'm the source of your pain
It was not my intention
To have your loss be my gain
I can't walk by a mirror
I can't speak my own name
Without clenching my fists tight
And flinching in shame

Cause I know you'll love him
Till your very last day
But I just had to have him
And he felt the same way

I'm a lost a sea sailor
Who looks to the stars
To guide them to safety
And keep them from harm
It's so damn cloudy
Don't know which way to turn
I know when the light comes
I surely will burn

Cause I know you'll love him
Till your very last day
But I just had to have him
And he felt the same way

You sit in your silence
While I put you through hell
You don't say a bad word
Gotta say them myself

At night when I'm tossing trying to sleep in my bed
Those bad words come racing through my head

I know you'll love him
Till your very last day
But I just had to have him
And he felt the same way

Cause I know you'll love him
Till your very last day
But I just had to have him
Just had to have him
And he felt the same way
I just had to have him
And he felt the same way