I turn 26 this year, got a few more on my plate Had to tell myself like 100 times that it's alright to take breaks There was a point in time where I thought every sign that I read said I got what it takes But, then I'd breakdown, like, fuck it, really? 'Cause I ain't sure nowadays I hate face-timing just to catch up 'Cause we don't ever really catch up And I'm at that age where everybody either hitched or they're headed towards a really bad breakup And I've been on both sides of a breakup And both sides want to skip to the makeup I used to wonder why they call that shit makeup And I think that it's 'cause when you wash it down the sink, you don't even recognize who you see I'll never find a woman that can keep up in the sheets I'll never find a person quite as confident as me, see And I don't want to lie, I'm conflicted all the time Because even though I'm not, I'm probably everything you think And I don't want to die, but, it's fuck it if I do And if I ever lie, least you know that's who I am And every time I cry, I tend to only think of you (straight up, straight up) And for the first two years of my deal I realized that the shit wasn't real And I would tell my friends I was doing pretty good and the views made it seem like facts But, I was struggling to write more tracks 'Cause the money wasn't coming in fast Shit, the money wasn't coming in at all And still wonder if I'd be better off Had I never reached out to the label in the first place Before it even was a label in the first place And said, fuck it, I'll do it by myself 'Cause every session I'm in there ain't no on else Mix, write, produce, there ain't shit I don't do I'm like Russ, 'cept good at what I do I don't give a fuck, everything is just luck Got way more gems than a fucking Brinks Truck And I'm so Mayweather in the cut Nothing but a goose, all of y'all can suck a duck Quick with the memes, always talking quick bucks But you never break bread, only ever butter up Me I take a swing 'fore it's even batter up And I don't give a "uh" all of y'all talking bases But never take it back cause you already basic And just like Apollo most of y'all need Lasik And I need a break