Like that U2, "The Streets Have No Name" Makes me think I'm twenty again, I just can't believe that How old are you again, man? I'm fifty-seven now Fifty-seven? That's cool, man It's gettin' old, haha Does that scare you? No, I don't care, it doesn't matter I'm really scared of aging Well, I, well (Yeah) We're all gonna age, so it's better to focus on your music Yeah, no, I've had that thought since I was a kid though, you know (Yeah) It just feels like the, you can't control it, you know? It's (Yeah) I always thought it was, well, when I was a kid, I was still growing When I was your size, or your age, I was like 5' 11" I grew almost three inches in college, twenty pounds of muscle It just showed up (Yeah) Just, I mean, I wasn't even trying Bitch, I been a bad son, I've been tryna make a change Bitch, I been a bad friend, I've been tryna make amends I've been carryin' this burden, I've been carryin' this shame I just gotta run away, I just gotta run away When we left Nepal, we were sleepin' on the floor Mom was tryna get job, I was tryna go back home Felt ashamed that we were broke, felt ashamed of how we spoke Felt ashamed of my own skin, I was hangin' by a rope Dad was workin' at the factory, my mama never home Hated Christmas, hated birthdays, all the rich kids coulda choked Knew I had to be a star when I was ten years old Once I make this fuckin' money, we ain't never goin' broke I was only seventeen, uh, when you passed away Always felt I took some blame, didn't know what I could change You would shoot up at my house, all I did was look away Gettin' worse every day, guess I lost all of my faith I've been thinkin' about your mom, damn, I hope that she's okay Never went to where she stayed, I've been feeling way too scared I could never go back home, I've been hidin' in the States All our friends turned to enemies, nothing's been the same When I dropped outta college, I hoped no one woulda known I was tryna make some money, had to do it on my own Bitch, I ran away from home, bitch, I ran away from home I've been runnin' all my life, but I don't know where to go Now I'm twenty-one years old, guess I finally reached my goal But I still feel the same way when I was ten years old Man, I made so much money, I can't count up all this dough I can't look my mama in the eye when I go back home I've been tryna make you proud, I've been tryna make you proud I let everybody down, I've been tryna make you proud I wanna feel super human I've been scared that I can't do this Blamin' you 'cause I feel useless You know me and my excuses Sabotage and other habits Burn it all when I can't manage Actin' like my life don't matter Same old story, same old pattern Thank God for the pain, thank God for the pain On the phone with my grandma, said I'm goin' insane I'ma go end it all, couldn't deal with the shame Took a look at my palms and told me I'd be okay But you, you're already on your way at 21, dude Just don't give up Yeah 100% Yeah just put it in and know Let those things inspire you instead Instead of going oh it's the best That. Yeah. It is, it is good (That's amazing) It is, it is good, yeah, it is, yeah It's hard, it's hard to feel, I don't know For me, at least, it's hard to feel proud 'Cause it feels like a obstacle more than a achievement (Yeah) It's like, "Damn, what the fuck am I gonna do? How am I gonna ever top this?" You know? It's not about topping it, it's just about finding the next thing That's gonna, y'know, that's gonna... It's a bit paralyzing, though you know (Yeah, yeah)