I got it done while no one saw it 
Removed the fright and did not tell 
Not alone but solely 
I turned your head and walked away 

I can't keep what I don't have 
But throw away the need to own 
Bet the players want to play 
Open a side pot I'm all in 

Vicious condition 
Perdition on demand 
A shelter of hatred 
The cradle of relief 

Oh darling, my inhibitor 
My heart is occupied 
No substitute and no relief 
I made myself a prisoner 

I'm not the one you thought I am 
And I'm no longer who I was 
Things I heard and plans that failed 
Shoes are worn out, paths blind 

When pressure reached a certain climax 
My knot untied just fell apart 
The ones I hate and try to escape from 
Once were the ones I needed most 

The scalp replanted back to your head 
Does not fit and looks grotesque 
Yes, I once wished you were dead 
Never prayed that you should die