Now in these cynical times Sterotypical minds Got me falling from my pinnacle the minute I climb Now these subliminal thoughts got individuals blind I'm trying to look beyond the lies Just to see what I'll find I'm like a flower in a cave Another hour in the maze And I'll cower to the power of my criminal ways The sun is shining but I'm catching minimal rays It's time for me to bloom out of this childish phase My life is like a battle that I'll probably never win 'Cause I keep thinking big and risking everything Life's a challenge and I wonder if I'll ever find the balance Mixed emotions and confusion topped off with many talents [Chorus:] Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change Can I change Would I change Or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (my life is twisted) My finger's pointing in the mirror I'm the one now I see my shadow in the sun dial Am I really out of change Put my freedom in a cage Slow down Man I got a son now There's nothing new thay all said it And I know it but I had to go throught it myself I'm hard-headed That's the only way I'll learn Get caught in the fire ther's no escaping the burn And it burns Change this Change that Change is full of lies I remain the same cat wear a good disquise Living life looking through my third blind crooked eye So if I change I'd be changing for the worst wouldn't I? [Chorus:] Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change Can I change Would I change Or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (my life is twisted) I wanna run but if I run I'm only running form myself Would it be easier if I were someone else I'm like a child playin' with matches that's never beeen burned Relearning all the lessons that I've already learned On a highway to a destinatin I've earned So many exits, but I've never bothered to turn I'm like a piece of shard glass laying on a frame of a window That was broken by the bricks of pain Sometimes I feel just like the devil's guinea pig He's watching me just to see how deep I can dig I admit I'm fucked up and got a lot to learn So now I'm dancing in the ashes of the bridge I've burned [Chorus:] Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change Can I change Would I change Or am I always gonna be the same I blame the world for making me such a freak But the world wants to blame it on me (my life is twisted)