Depression make a nigga wanna blow my fucking head clean off this whole neck of mine So many times I contemplate Bringing my life to a end but I just can't do it Right Here for a fucking reason Lil niggas lookin' up to me when I'm speakin' Irresponsibility I'm sending them a negative message I question why they looking up to me as if I'm their parents It's apparent that I'm broken Started smokin' again Duckin' shows and I feel I'm losing focus Use to have a certain type of drive Since Vinny died it's been a fight for me to try and stay alive Wouldn't wanna pass this emptiness upon my people I know that they miss me like I miss him I'm reminiscing on the glisten from his motorcycle As he pull up ready to dump on anybody with his rifle Vinny was the best friend I never had And the closest thing to Dad More mad that he's gone and glad that I met him Should be happy he's in heaven but I'm fucking selfish Need his help Man I need his help desperately Went and up'd the anti-depression dosage I need But I'm closer now to death than I've ever been Went and etched a life wish in to my perfect skin That's a sin that I intentionally took upon I'm mad at God so I'm destroying his creation now