Mask up my pain Hold back my tears I'm going insane Nobody knows All by myself Let the rain hit me I'm going insane Nobody knows I just woke up hoping this would be a better day I just spent the morning trying to learn to meditate Anything That could get back into a better state But that ain't working maybe I just need to get away Nope That ain't it No that's not what I needed Swear I knew this before So why do I keep on repeating Expecting different results Like something going to change I guess I did this to myself I think I'm going insane Okay look One side telling me to go all out Other side telling me stop One side telling me to focus on the work and the job Other side keep telling me "nah" Telling me I Need a second just to breathe Need a minute just to rest But part of me telling me I cannot do that I'll get all the sleep that I need when I'm dead Feeling like I'm at the edge Tip-toeing on the ledge Quit throwing in the towel That's not how I'm going out right now not yet But I confess I been upset Every morning I been laying in bed Scrolling through feeds Knowing it means Nothing to me I'm not my best so I Mask up my pain Hold back my tears I'm going insane Nobody knows All by myself Let the rain hit me I'm going insane Nobody knows Gonna be honest The first verse to this song I wrote a couple nights ago All alone in my bedroom I'm all cooped up, had the lights low And I was gonna continue with the same theme for this verse 2 But I was too tired, it was getting late like curfew So I slept there Woke early got fresh air Road trip to see the in-laws out in Las Vegas I'll finish writing when I get there Got there and I went on My laptop so I could check on That first verse that I laid down trying figure out where I left off Started writing but I couldn't do it Something wasn't feeling right (nah) How can I be writing something dark When everything around me looking bright (yeah) Lotta love in this room here Lemme just paint a picture Got my wife sitting on the couch right now laughing with her sister That's Chloe, I gotta lotta love for that girl there And christian, that's her husband Who feels like he's a brother And I miss them when I'm not here Looking at them smiling sitting next to Their 10 month old newborn That's Duke Bao my nephew The joy that that boy brings so special Really got me sitting here looking forward to raising our own when we get to In the next room Maria cooking in the kitchen Vietnamese dishes Got spring rolls And Pho soup with the chicken We sitting laughing Talking this and that and Reminiscing back and forth On the things that's happened I got moments when I'm low but I just need a shift of perspective to let it go (let it go) I got moments when I'm low but I just gotta look around and see I'm not alone and so I won't mask up my pain Won't hold back my tears If I'm going insane Somebody knows