Its 5 AM and I haven't slept in 24 hours I've been thinking how all of my days are nights and nights are days oh I can't tell The bottles up but it doesn't seem to sink me half-empty I've been dreading 'bout all of my failure Frights and open doors will I find rest What if I end up beating a part of me The part that I meant to keep at security In my defense I'm used to carrying myself And maybe I'm scared I'll lose what's in front of me Lie to my parents say I've got everything Handled but clearly I've been lying to myself It's 5 AM and I haven't spoke to anyone 'bout this But the words are at the edge of this curb and taking up a little too much space It's crowded out but nobody wants to talk it over Don't wanna step on any more of these toes and reasons why they couldn't care for less What if I end up beating a part of me The part that I meant to keep at security In my defense I'm used to carrying myself Maybe I'm scared I'll lose what's in front of me Lie to my parents say I've got everything Handled but clearly I've been lying to myself Maybe I'm scared I'll lose what's in front of me Lie to my parents say I've got everything Handled but clearly I've been lying to myself