Tell me to my face that you could never lie But I'm the one to pour the whisky on the fire Just to see the flames and feel like I'm alive Should I break some shit or cry? It's so hard to decide You take all of me The defensively self-sabotaging And it cuts me so deep You keep searching for that silver lining How can you love me when I don't love me? Feel I'm like I'm wasting all your energy It's not like me to disturb the peace You been waiting, and wishing, and hoping for me to change Not me... Not me... Not me disturbing the peace Not me... Not me... Not me disturbing the peace Years of patterns I can't seem to leave behind Old behaviours always so hard to unwire Seems l like all I ever do is apologize But it's always on my mind It's always on my mind You take all of me The defenively self-sabotaging And it cuts me so deep You don't give up on me You keep on trying How can you love me when I don't love me? Feel I'm like I'm wasting all your energy It's not like me to disturb the peace You been waiting, and wishing, and hoping for me to change Not me... Not me... Not me disturbing the peace Not me... Not me... Not me disturbing the peace I wanna keep it, I wanna keep it I wanna keep it but the peace is missing I wanna keep it, I wanna keep it I wanna keep it but there's pieces missing I wanna keep it, I wanna keep it I wanna keep it but the peace is missing I wanna keep it, I wanna keep it I wanna keep it but there's pieces missing