You can protect yourself from things you would like
If you're obsessed with only doing what's right
Nobody's waiting at the end with a prize
For staying in at night
All the pots I stirred, things I new for sure
I was wrong, but it sounded right
At the time at least, now when I can't sleep
It's 'cause I blame me
But I'm not, I'm not dead
Even if I was
I'd wish that I fucked up
At least twice as much and had like double the fun
But I'm not dead
I'm not, I'm not done
I'm looking down from starlight, glass-eyed
I still got some time left, I'm not dead
My boyfriend's dad is over seventy-five
His life's more fun and more fulfilling than mine
If I'm a rockstar, I'm not doing it right
Tapped out at twenty-nine
All the pots I stirred, things I knew for sure
I was right, but it came out wrong
Every "I'll change" spiel lead to nothing real
And I still blame me
But I'm not, I'm not dead
I'm not, I'm not done
All this time I wasted, couldn't hate myself enough
I'm not, I'm not dead
Even if I was
I'd wish that I fucked up
At least twice as much and had like double the fun
But I'm not dead
I'm not, I'm not done
I'm looking down from starlight, glass-eyed
I've still got some time left, I'm not dead
I'm not, I'm not dead
I'm not, I'm not done
All this time I wasted, couldn't hate myself enough
I'm not, I'm not dead
Even if I was
I'd wish that I fucked up
At least twice as much and had like double the fun
But I'm not dead
