I keep my goals to myself
Cuz whenever I share it with folks
They get a look upon their face
And their memory floats
To a time where their goals and the stars ain't align
And they swear I can't do it cuz whoever he knows couldn't accomplish it
Despite all of my accomplishments
And trail blazing from a place of obscurity
To needing more security the second they deposit hits
The least they could do is just acknowledge it
And give me praise for it
I mean this wasn't wishful thinking
Like when you blow out the candles on your birthday
Cuz that only come round once a year
And you gotta wait for it
I worked every day for it
I prayed for it
I even left my mom in the O
Moved to LA for it
Thinking I could get rich overnight
But then that rent payment came on the first
And I couldn't pay for it
Shit will have you second guessing your life
That was my third strike
The first one was signing to Bird
Letting my ego inflate because I thought I was on
Didn't make too many songs cuz I was so insecure
So just to come around I had to sip a lot of patron
Five years taking trips to Miami
Praying the label drop an album
That shit never came
Bottles of champagne
Label meetings where nobody knew my damn name
Man just reminiscing about it will spark a damn flame
I used to look at Wayne's pictures on the wall
And think bout dedication 5
And how if I could get up out this mental prison that I put myself in
I'll make my manifestations fly
Sometimes I wonder if the setbacks that God gave me
We're all because he wanted me to be a patient guy
Or if I really slept on the only opportunity that would come
Or am I giving into Satan's lies
Sometimes I can't decide
Hey father I been calling to the heavens
Can you hear me cuz you ain't replied
Seem like you really want me to figure this shit out on my own
But do you realize I ain't divine
I been playing with my nine too much
I been thinking bout the crime too much
My sis and my dad used to do the lines too much
The habits I made
The habits they gave
It's clear you could draw a line thru us
Am I a diamond that's rough
The snow on the bluff
The road that they told me was rough
The heroine or the narcan that open you up
All the "I love you"s my dad never told me enough
I never had a father figure there to show me what's up
I came from a place where no one got a trophy to touch
And still got this metal displayed
Just to show somebody else who been going through some things
You can change it
Don't listen to whatever they say
And when the odds stacked against you
Your friends falling off
And you wishing that you had somebody calling to vent to
And when you're staring at the chrome
Just know that you not alone cuz it's all
Some shit that I done been through
Bags under both of my eyelids
I been running for a long time
You could feel it when you look me in the eyes
I put blood sweat and tears for this right here
(Bags under both of my eyelids)
Blood sweat and tears for this right here
Bags under both of my eyelids
I been running for a long time
You could feel it when you look me in the eyes
I put blood sweat and tears for this right here
(Bags under both of my eyelids)
Blood sweat and tears for this right here
(Bags under both of my eyelids)
