Man every time this depression come around
I can't get a grip on it
The devil tempted the floor
I slipped on it
Man my cup runneth over with drama
I sipped on it
Get in the way of my drive
Like I parked the whip on it

See I got pain if she want me gotta lay it on her
Bitter bitches out there wishing that I waited longer
My wife step out to the wedding as they playing Lana
If life's a bitch, I just pray she ain't the maid of honor

I came out so may battles like I was made of armor
Took the birds out the coupe and made 'em pay the farmer
They tried to come for my charms
Good thing I ain't a charmer
Left them boys charred and dismembered
I call it "paying karma"

See getting money in my genes
That's my true religion
My homie wanna do business. He sick of doing dishes
They fired me from KFC. Guess I was too ambitious
To be in the kitchen with the flour tryna move a chicken

I wonder what my co-workers think of this newer mission
If going back to where I came from didn't make me superstitious
I'd probably hit that drive thru up in this new edition
Just to show 'em: when you're self-made, it's too delicious

All that doubt made it bitter-sweet
So many homies along the way. Thought, I'd miss a beat
I mean we came into this bitch we was 7 deep
6 of them boys slept on me that's why I never sleep
5 in the morning my eyes wide tryna get a brief
Case of money
You got a case of the jealousy
Should get a case I done slayed so many melodies
Can't go to Canada no more 'cause all these felonies

I cut people out the circle 'cause they ain't align
Wanted my spot, but their hustle ain't the same as mine
I think they thought that they would come back at a later time
Realized that that wasn't gon' happen. Now, they hate online

Man all that shade fall on deaf ears
Let them people tell you that you're right
You still missing what you left here
They ask me how winning taste. I say, "Chef's kiss."

You ever come to my birthday you got a death wish
I elevated my stance to watch the paper dance
Why every time I see somebody from my past
They tell me they down bad
But coming up they got major plans
Then ask me for a hand out
Bra there ain't a chance

I made this off the arm strong like my name was "Lance"
Giving CDs away when nobody gave a glance
Now these label executives out here shaking hands
Promising that major advance
But I know what come with that paperwork
They're stealing your dreams
Tell you that they're doing marketing
They faking your streams
Then you wonder why your hype never big as it seems
You go to book a tour
And no one there to fill up the seats

Now you gon' struggle to recoup
Plus you got all them bills due on the coupe
And you can't go get a job
Your homies say you're the truth
And in your eyes
A 9-to-5 lower than you can stoop
Man you're smoking more than Snoop
Your pressure is at the roof

That's why I tell these artist man just stay independent
Keep your ownership
Grass ain't always greener on the other side you know
Comparing yourself to other people's success
Got no idea what's even going on

Plus there's so much more to this shit
Than just money and streams and numbers
Is what you're doing fulfilling you?
Is it feeding your spirit?
Are you inspiring people?
Are you inspiring yourself?
Do you feel motivated by what you're doing?
Man I ain't done with this shit
Shout out whoever made this beat
This shit inspire me man

Bottled emotions
I left at the bottom of the ocean
I gave these rappers a chance man
But they not as potent
Some of my simplest records evoking more emotion
I lost a piece of myself when Ethan was overdosing

I lost a piece of my heart when my daddy left me broken
Life wasn't copasetic
But we kept it coping
So many things I wanted to say but were never never spoken
Home alone at the house
Like I'm Macaulay Culkin

Man you want something in this life you gotta show devotion
I seen so many hard times ain't even show emotion
Life was driving me insane but I kept it moving
I trained my mind to redefine the word "locomotion"

Lower the potion into my mouth
Ain't nobody notice
My teenage years were periods of me being hopeless
Stealing cars I could jump-start a KIA motor
But wasn't half as hard as being sober

Man I turned myself to the man that I always needed
Tell my pops his unfinished business has been completed
All that tragedy you put me through made me undefeated
Them prayers they wasn't needed
Go roll up a blunt with Jesus
Tell him that I took a bite of fruit from the Garden of Eden
Wisdom that the pain taught me
I couldn't harbor from reading
Ain't wish on a star
But a star something I superseded
Tell 'em, "I'm the best,"
All they're saying is "Aw. You're conceited."

Homie this is self-belief
Form all the years I had to shelter grief
For all the years my family chose them Oxys over me
I spread your ashes in a mountain out in Tennessee
That's why J Cole ain't even hit this beat as cold as me

No surrender and no retreat
Could rock a diamond grill
The truth still come out of my teeth
I got an iron will
And keep that iron under my seat
Just to iron out the issues that could come to my feet

So please don't act like Iron Mike
When you're saying it's beef
If you're so much as say my name
You're gon' get what you reap
Man that's a mountain that you do not wanna climb
And it's steep
Difference of lion and sheep

I'm like the Mayans
In the sacrifice I find my relief
And in the afterlife where I finally sleep
Until then I just lift the pen and write to the beats
I mean they told me, "Watch the throne."
But that's my kind of seat
I seen the stage lights
But never seen the lights of defeat