Aight, venting It feels like a nigga needs help I don't wanna say too much though 'Cause it feels like I've got nothing to myself Already said about Stereotype, and I've said everything about Slut I told you lot about waiting by the window How my father was really on drugs But shit ain't changed that much though Look, what am I gonna do - lie? What's the point up in that? If you already know my life You already know about Gipset days Violate cousin get banged in the face And we done the whole 'Krept's cousin' I'm my own man, look how I sit in my ways And I know that you wanna hear a story And I'ma give you one, nigga, pipe down But this one ain't about back then, this one's about right now So Allah, I beg you guide me And make everything that I say be truth I just want them to understand so they can see the world in my views But anyway, now where was we? My father, you were an idol to me Even downloaded Twitter I remember, for me Just so he could retweet Anyway, shit's so good in the hood And I still live with my dad in the city Normally the vibe's calm in the house Last month he's been moving iffy I'm like "yo, pops, what's going on?" He says "I'm gonna tell you" I say "when?" And right now a nigga be nervous Normally, he would address shit there and then See, aight, it's bait But he wants time, to plan and see what he's gonna say I won't put you through the nervous wait Cool, I'll skip this a couple of days I'm praying, Lord, I'm praying for some bad days All these problems got me in my ways Man I lose myself thinking about all this pain Now when the tables gonna turn my way? There's no quitting now Listen, I'm the man now And I can't give up now I need you to stick around Now he takes me and my sister shisha We just wanna know what's going on He's telling man his usual jokes We're looking at him like "dad, what's wrong?" He's still telling his jokes and the shisha I smoke Snapping and getting out the camera Right in the middle of his jokes and his banter Hear this man say something about cancer Of course, he tries to carry on talking Sis is crying and me, I go stiff And he's saying shit like "they caught it early" It's normal shit, he'll be normal quick Maybe I sound naive and shit, but I didn't think that stuff really exists I thought that shit only happened on the TV Never saw one so close to the kid So nah man, I ain't tryna hear that Fuck that, I ain't tryna hear that Not my dad, I ain't tryna hear that Not my pops, I ain't tryna hear that So now what I gotta see my dad go through On top all that shit that my dad's gone through He's just gone from a crackhead to a king Like, how much shit can a man go through? And every day after that was stress 'Cause every week after that was tests Learning shit about keyhole surgery Spending hours on the NHS A date gets set for the operation Now we just gotta get prepared He's staying strong like a father should But look in his eyes, I can see that he's scared Anyway, operation's success The cancer's gone But now he's so weak I don't wanna ask dumb questions, like "dad, are you okay?" Look, so I don't speak And me, I don't talk, me, I just stare And I don't even know my tough stuff Just my brain it can't comprehend, seeing Superman so fucked up So that night I slept there Well, you know, just as much as I can sleep I'm so close to my dad, his guardian angel's gotta try and get through me Remember that story - when I was a young one I missed my birthday and fell asleep by the window Now I'm sleeping next to my dad, and I'm moving the cover every time that the wind blows Told him rest for six weeks But the second week he was back in the office Taking care of business Man, I hate it but I guess that's what a boss is Taking care of a fucked up me, my sisters and my little bro Still being the whole head of the family Hear [?] nanny saying that she wanna go but Fuck man My dad, you get me? My idol, my king I look up to you so much I'm praying, Lord, I'm praying for some bad days All these problems got me in my ways Man I lose myself thinking about all this pain Now when the tables gonna turn my way? There's no quitting now Listen, I'm the man now And I can't give up now I need you to stick around