kind of upset
but I shouldn't be
when things go smoothly invent problems 
in my stupid head
what's wrong with getting by on what gets you by I know it's no big deal
but why do I feel stupid when head my is happy
what happened to
my imagination
how can things be so un-intense?
can I arrange to be deranged
thought I might be there
forgot the shortcut there
I know I won't be there
forgot the shortcut there
thought I might be there
thought I was already there but
forgot the shortcut there
I know I won't be there
I know I've never been there
forgot the shortcut there