He told me I felt ageless, an eighteen year old with insight And something about that made me wince, it didn't sit right Did I grow up too fast? Or did I trick you into thinking I did? Underneath this mask I'm embarrassingly childish Is it the way I carry myself? The space that I take up? Did my shins give it away? Not nearly hairless enough Am I not what you expected? Too self aware, too chill Am I too much woman to be a teenage girl? My friends are all in college, I finished high school early I'm not gonna show but you could at least invite me to the party When he told me I don't seem young, I think he wanted me to thank him Tell me I'm wise, but let me be dumb, I'm a walking contradiction Is it the way I carry myself? The space I take up? Did my shins give it away? Not nearly hairless enough Am I not what you expected? Too self aware, too chill Am I too much woman to be a teenage girl? Eight acting eighteen, now I'm eighteen acting eight I can't keep my room clean, can't keep a schedule straight I don't know what I'm doing and I think that that's okay For the first time in my life I want to act my age For the first time in my life I want to act my age