I'll buy some cigarettes and smoke them on the beach
I'll walk home alone and douse my whole bedroom in bleach
Because I feel safe behind these four brick walls
But my skin's too thin, so can I borrow yours?
It's just enough, it's just enough
To let you walk out of that door
Knowing you left your head at home
I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks
I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep
'Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up
Still here and it's all because of me
Because I wished it was bright
So I'll just wait for the light
I'm sick of hearing I'm wrong
Instead of hearing I'm right
I'm sick of hearing that everything is fine
All I ever wanted to be was
Safe in the comfort of my own company
All that you ever needed from me
Was for me to be conscious and act like there's nothing wrong
I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks
I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep
'Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up
Still here and it's all because of me
I fell asleep with the weight of the world
Crushing me until I'm gone, until I'm gone
I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks
I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep
'Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up
Still here and it's all because of me
