Feeling empty staring stupid at the flickering light It's all I can do to be something this purgatory likes And hell is only something you go thru in alternate lives It's never here motherfucker it can't save you this time I can feel all my broken and limitless desires Put me back where I can feel like something Pieces of me missing pieces of me catching fire At least without a future the present was everything Hell doesn't exist Hell isn't that bad Hell doesn't exist Hell isn't that bad Hell doesn't exist Hell isn't that bad It never happened in the first So make it happen again I don't see a bottom in the pit Scabs reopen in an instant Bad at conflict Hell doesn't exist so let's make the problem worth it And this place doesn't make any sense What the fuck am I supposed to do with it? And I was always right here I just wanted to play pretend that I was anywhere different But not for any good reason Still searching for the why Have you ever felt weakened By your true self Something she doesn't want you to find? I could puke I could eat, but my stomach hurts Curling in a ball Piss myself in the womb of God I don't see myself It's so hot that I can't feel at all Yeah I know I'm wrong I'm a cow, meat down on the ground I know I'll miss our silly jokes You're making fun of me You make my life an ice cream skit I kiss the cold I smushed my heart just to piss cum into you The things that destroy the future getting smaller every day Being cute used to be only one crisis away Complicate at every turn What the fuck is the problem?