When I first arrived
Push everything down inside
New world new self to find
But it couldn't be true
Heart pressed in from the outside
Compressed to the right size
And I follow it down
I swear this time I'll make you proud
Thoughts inside my head like crawling TV snow
Faded words of comfort in the dial tone
One day soon I'll slip away and no one will know
I'll know
No one will know
Lilith couldn't be perfect
Big sister couldn't stay born
See blue like an ocean
Big waves in a perfect storm
Roleplay's repetitive
Try to stay positive
I'm just too sensitive
I feel my body give up
Send mana upward to Heaven
Belong in a body like a blue pen cap
I try to make it fit
Cuts flesh like a rough plastic edge
Roleplay's repetitive
Try to stay positive
I just stopped feeling it
When everything is dark
I'm locked inside my heart
Cratered, shadowed in the night
Watched all the time
Guide me slow
I don't wanna know
I just wanna feel your inside
God I really tried
Warm and glowing light
I feel strange
So dumb
I never get it
I find it out in the mix
It's already too late for us to fix
So what?
It's not a person
I don't think it ever was
It's only signals ballooning out around it
In the shape of a storm cloud
