Push me out from the darkness To a sky that's colored blue Somewhere someone's finding happiness While I'm still here so hung up on you Nothing is real and I want you to know That I'm not alright tear open my chest I'll try not to flinch won't make promises I won't make promises, you taught me that I'm still losing what's left out My self esteem and I'm still watching The slow fading of all my daydreams The hardest things to say Are the words that mean the most So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds And I doubt you'll even know The easiest thing to fake Are feeling to fool someone else And I've been tricked for so long by you That I spent these last few months in my own hell A failed apology A day too late but now I see That all you really want is to see me Dangle neck first from a tree What would you need me for You've got friends galore And all you've ever been to me Is a waist of time and nothing more Nothing is real and I want you to know That I'm not alright when you tear open my chest I'll try not to flinch, I won't make promises You've taught me that I hate myself For loving you like this And I hate myself for hating myself Just enough to love you Just enough to love you