Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someone's finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you
Nothing is real and I want you to know
That I'm not alright tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch won't make promises
I won't make promises, you taught me that
I'm still losing what's left out
My self esteem and I'm still watching
The slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say
Are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds
And I doubt you'll even know
The easiest thing to fake
Are feeling to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you
That I spent these last few months in my own hell
A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really want is to see me
Dangle neck first from a tree
What would you need me for
You've got friends galore
And all you've ever been to me
Is a waist of time and nothing more
Nothing is real and I want you to know
That I'm not alright when you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch, I won't make promises
You've taught me that
I hate myself
For loving you like this
And I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you
Just enough to love you
