The rain feels colder now The plague has left this town I'll heal you I'll heal you The red and poisoned sea Calls to the hate in me I'll break you I'll break you Headstrong for the comedown Mind heavy with a faint sound I'll hear you In your prayers tonight Bastion of the white lie Heads turning with a blind eye I'll see you In the candlelight I don't want to hurt you But I can't stay away I don't have the strength To know myself and keep you safe So wherever you are now I hope you will forget The flaws I had before Because I haven't lost them yet The devil's fever dream Holds the most cursed fiends I know this Symptom only mine In crimson memories The watcher always sees The fallout That I leave behind Burned palms of the wasteland Floods rise to the blood on my hands And I want to forget you Or take you far away Safety for when I fail World's gone with the last death knell The distance I could never stay I don't want to hurt you But I can't stay away I don't have the strength To know myself and keep you safe So wherever you are now I hope you will forget The flaws I had before Because I haven't lost them yet Somebody's gonna get hurt In the wake of my emotions In this bottomless sky In all your memories, I Am a distant ghost behind you Through the veil of my lies I could pretend that I'm cut But the truth is I can't feel it Am I something less than real? There is a part of me left That remembers how to love you And the memories heal My spirit in the darkness Is in a prison I must know To run to you, free But I don't want to be free Not really Not really Not even in my dreams I don't wanna be free Not really I don't want to be free Not really Not even in my dreams I don't want to be I don't want to break free tonight I'm safer in the dark When I can't see in the light I don't want to hurt you But I can't stay away I don't have the strength To know myself and keep you safe So wherever you are now I hope you will forget The flaws I had before Because I haven't lost them yet