Lying there in a small crib Naked and innocent Just loosing my virginity Only four years old A menacing man above me He's my own father! My legs and arms are limp Crushed by confusion Lascivious eyes stare at me I've never seen before Musty smell in the air Diffusing body odor Feeling like a pig ravished and abused Praying for my god The old man with the long white beard A hurting abdomen, a grieved soul Tears are running from my eyes I don't know what's going on Cries, screams of despair Fathers slaps in my face "Shut up little cunt" Feeling like a pig Ravished and abused Praying for my god The old man with the long white beard Satisfaction - father is groaning Humiliation - treated like a shitheap Observation - my brain is empty Anxiety - father, never do it again! Atrocity -fear in my eyes Inbreeding - my body is deseased Shame - mother won't be told Some human beings are repulsive animals After a while - the pain is over Disgusting - full of serous mucus Genitals - blood runs from my legs An ugly smile - my father leaves the room Misery - I'm feeling sick Depression - I clasp Teddy in my arms Loneliness - nobody who helps Some human beings are repulsive animals First you tried to repress Then you established: This nightmare will ever be Deep in your subconscious