Wake in the morning I'm feeling like shit Shawty gon' tell me that this isn't it Family gon' ask me when I'm gon' be rich Gun to my head 'cause I'm tired of this Life is a book and I'm flippin' thru pages Tryna find all the good stages Tryna find where it's amazing Tryna find where I'm just blazing Thoughts in my mind just make me feel away Liquor and hoes is my perfect escape Nikki addiction I'm killing myself Not looking for love I am looking for help Not looking for drugs I am looking for health Not looking for hoes I am looking for you yeah Looking for you yeah I'ma 'bout to blackout Gon' save me from my trauma Still tryna figure out Why it's bringing me this drama I'ma 'bout to blackout Gon' save me from my trauma Still tryna figure out Why it's bringing me this drama 'cause Sometimes the meds won't medicate I'll tell someone I'm not okay Just for them to turn around and say That's your problem And I know that imperfectly Correct that's not what you'd say After that you had the nerve to say I don't think I'm selfish