okay. (2016)

As It Is

I don't know if I've been worse
I don't know if I can change
But right now, I don't think, I don't think that I'm okay

I felt a year's worth of sadness catching up with me
The sky that I painted to silence the grey days, bleeds til there's nothing
Bleeds 'til there's nothing left
I don't know if I've been worse
I don't know if I can change
But right now, I don't think, I don't think that I'm okay
I don't think that I'm okay
I don't think that I'm okay

In unfamiliar surroundings, shaking restlessly
I confess to a stranger
She puts pen to paper
Listens in silence with empty condolence
And how foreign it felt
When I opened my mouth and heard the truth come out
(I heard the truth come out)
I've been running away
A tired rest from the pain
My only Novocaine (my only Novocaine)

I don't know if I've been worse
I don't know if I can change
But right now, I don't think, I don't think that I'm okay
I don't think that I'm okay. I don't think that I'm okay.

So keep your "It'll get better's" and I'll keep my "I'll be just fine's"
I'll show you flashes of colours and hide behind bouquets of lies
So keep your "It'll get better's" and I'll keep my "I'll be just fine's" (I'll be just fine)
I'll show you flashes of colours and hide behind bouquets of lies

I don't know if I've been worse
I don't know if I can change
But right now, I don't think, I don't think that I'm okay
I don't think that I'm okay. I don't think that I'm okay.
I don't think that I'm okay