Why do I try - fighting against your indifference? I always say it's ok - I was only lying the last time You seem to want - to hear a song written about you Better write it yourself - or it's not gonna be very flattering It's not how I need it It's not how I planned it It's not how I want it But I got it I admit that it's lust - frees my mind from thinking I'm not the last one - who'll fall to that emotion I am nothing - that's what you would have me believing Time to move on - to bigger and better disasters It's not how I saw it It's not how I need it It's not how I want it But I got it It's all a game My hearts a flame No ground to gain A speeding train I always know when to quit - when I've overstayed my welcome I'm not unbreakable - sorry if I gave that impression I try to help you - but I'm left with a handful of rope burn If I seem bitter - at least I've conveyed my emotion It's not how I need it It's not how I planned it It's not how I want it But I got it It's all the same I lose again The cause to blame A speeding train A speeding train