So, the last time I got high
I got high for, like, five days straight
I was peaking
Went home - stumbled home
To my little basement apartment
And I cried there for, like, five hours
Next thing you know
I start making ends
I get clean
I'm hitting, you know, thirty days - sixty days
And even though I was getting clean
I kept hustling
The thing is, you know, hustling clean and responsible
My - the whole thing flourished
So, I'm making, you know, a few hundred dollars a week
To five hundred - a thousand a week
To ten thousand
To, like, thirty - forty thousand a month
Back then, I'm - I'm thinking I arrived
And it's cool when there's a lot of people around
And when I'm having barbecues in my big house
When people are on my boat
When we're at the boat club
But when people would start to leave
I would get that "voidy" feeling
My whole life, I thought the problem was that I was poor
I was a drug addict
Now, I'm not
I got money and I'm clean and I'm living that quote-unquote "life"
I was still miserable, bro
Deep down inside, I was just miserable
And I always believed in God
I didn't know who Jesus was, none of that stuff
I didn't know, like, the Gospels
I just always believed in God, since I was a kid
It was me in this big house by myself
I say
"Yo, whatever it means to give my life to You, I want to give my life to You"
And I said this - I said
"I don't know if I'm going to be walking around with a Bible under my arm or what that looks like, but I'm done"
And I went upstairs - I fell asleep
I woke up and became the guy you know today
Stopped cursing - stopped hustling
You know, all the stuff that comes from that sinful life
That was the real - the GOD moment
You know what I'm saying?
The Spirit of the Lord was upon me, I guess, right?
Like, thinking about it...
23 years clean, my boy?!
23 joints including weekends
