I hate myself but I hate this more This feeling that I have to endore I can't believe that it happened again Because it always gets good Then crumbles down Like it never existed, broke it apart I wish I didn't exist and it's not your fault So don't try to fix it The urges always come back to hurt myself Because I hurt you through the words I said And the things I do I can't fight my demons they always win When I'm by myself there's no one to listen