We drank bottled water together
And talked business
I think I played the right moves
You were looking over my shoulder
As I went through the motions
Of another night
And it is was alright, because
I thought I knew who everybody was
Just by looking at them
My heart is anywhere but here
And how tired I was
From the past couple of weeks
From the past couple of years
Well it hit me all at once
On a balcony overlooking nothing
With snow falling all around
I called just to say good night
And you hadn't done anything wrong
Really, it's me not you
I can't believe how naive I was
To think things could ever be so simple
And can you live with
What you know about yourself
When you're all alone, behind closed doors
The things we never said but
We always knew were right there
It's got me on my knees in a bathroom
Praying to a god that I don't even believe in
"Dear Jesus.. are you listening?"
If this is the one chance that really matters
Don't let me fuck this up
If you had told me about all this when I was fifteen
I never would have believed it.
