Fantasies, misery came together In the world of guilt and pain A neverending game Do not reject me, I was better of without But in my agonized existence I needed to be free Free my mind, free my soul I do not need to feel no more Feel no more, I'm better off this way Alone, far from the past and its brutal face I still feel the disgust and pain Let me be free This is my life today, this is the way it went out of control I cannot do without these glorifying means, my remedy These amazing illusions, fantasies Fantasy, not for me, like another mirror of reality Another point of view Don't disbelieve me, I really tried to do without But with sadness as a companion it's hard to do Without the seduction, to become someone I'm not But in this beautiful deception I'll overcome the night Another day, another week, I'll overcome time Colors seem to flow, they seem to come alive While the sound of life is stronger than before It's more than a dream, this is so real I swim and fly, I never feel more than I need, than I fear I roam, I cry, I am paralyzed I can fight the world! The sense of time is important now Just like the past, just like right now There's no illusion that this is for real! Observe me, control me Tell me what is best, what's good Tell me how it worked for you Tell me how to find myself, find respect, find the strength Facing life so pure and clean, mean and hard All these words, can't cure nor heal