Insecurity- this time it's got the best of me. 
Apathy- this time I think it's killing me. 
Try to scream- but I can't make any noise. 
Try to breathe- but the breath has lost my voice. 
There has got to be a better way. 
Some way to get rid of this fucking pain. 
Is my future in a razor blade? 
Sometimes suicide isn't so insane. 
Bad memories- so I drink to forget. 
But you see- all I lose is self respect. 
No control- no more goals and no more aim. 
Blackened soul- everyday it feels the same. 
Can't face the boredom that everyday brings. 
I'm feeling guilty for an uncommitted crime. 
Left dangling from a puppeteer's strings. 
My body's free but my mind is doing time. 
Suicide- everyday a soul is lost. 
Justified- I think I'll carry my own cross. 
Bedside note- sory mother if you cry. 
But life's a joke- so I think today, I'll just lay down and die.