It's getting harder to decide on which way I should go Should I let myself down fast? I don't think I want to know It's over said but understated just how hard it can be Hey I think I've seen this road before and it's so hard to believe I'd be back this way again after I told myself to leave You never said that it was gonna be easy But I didn't know just how hard it would be I go 'round and 'round I'm lost and found I'm never happy in the middle I've gotta be up or down Just when I think I've found level ground I turn around and destroy all of the life I've found Well self-destruction's kinda dumb But if you do it well You can find heaven if you can handle hell It's all a part of understanding Just how strange life can be Living a lie becomes so easy But now I just want to be free I feel inside out never thought I'd doubt My ability to work it all out Going forward to fall back Working hard to relax I never thought that I would be following my own tracks It's going 'round It's going 'round It's going 'round