I can see her through the water, the snow, that you learn it from me, I'm a mirror The good ones will pick you up when you're down and out I miss L.A. like a fever I miss driving around smoking reefer Tell my friends that I'll make my way out again And I don't have to explain myself to them I don't have to run them through the thought process of what my blind ambition stems They just want to see me for who I am For who I'm gonna be So I ask myself, howcome I'm still far from it? Howcome water tastes like wine but I feel so far away from it? I let the shivers running down my spine For a second yeah, I feel okay from art I make But it comes with blood and it takes me away You will calm me down, yeah Can you pull me back to the dirt I came out of? It's watching my heart again It's watching my heart again It's watching my heart again It's watching my heart again It hurts like hell when you know yourself Cause I feel too much, God I really wanna love Cause I'm done with hate I just need some drugs and a house on the hill where the Malibu light is That's where my time's spent That's where every drive I ever drive in my mind is That's why I'm digging here That's where all the parties end with empty hands I wanna know that I tried it She said "you gotta realize it And fuck and fight till you die", yeah I remember the time spent in the winds all pushing through It's watching my heart again It's watching my heart again It's watching my heart again It's watching my heart again