I remember now, but I still have my doubts I think it's gonna be today Everybody came, but it's just not the same Why did it have to be today? Now my chest is tight - no, I am not all right It doesn't have to be this way Why does it have to be this way? I dont know what´s wrong, It´s like I´m to far gone It doesn´t matter, anyway Fear is in my heart - just when I stop it starts And I can never live this way Freedom in a cage - no sun and too much rage I don't know how much i can take Push it down inside,but it knows just where to hide I know that "normal" is hard to fake BLeeding into life - it's like a thousand knives Are slowly turning me into this Why does it have to be like this? I dont know what´s wrong, It´s like I´m to far gone It doesn´t matter, anyway Fear is in my heart - just when I stop it starts And I can never live this way (2x) I lost again, today... I dont know what´s wrong, It´s like I´m to far gone It doesn´t matter, anyway Fear is in my heart - just when I stop it starts And I can never live this way Living with a curse, sometimes it´s even worse It slowly kills me everyday Something I despise is gonna take my life I guess I´ll try again today